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Normalcy! It's returning to my life! I will have a reason to get up in the morning (although morning is going to come really early after ten months of sleeping in). I will be making money for a change. I will get to see my beloved senior population again. (I have missed senior citizens like crazy. Dan can attest that I stop in the mall to smile at old people and babies). I get to be a nurse again instead of a patient. I've really missed the structure and sense of purpose work brought to my life, and I've especially missed being able to help someone, instead of someone who gets helped.
I am very happy about going back to work and getting my life back, albeit a little nervous: what if I don't know anyone to talk to in the break room? What if I can't remember which drug is for gout and which drug is for blood pressure? What if I can't balance the schoolwork for my Master's program with working fulltime? What if none of the patients like me? What if my hip gets really fatigued really quickly and I just can't do it? I think my scariest fear of all is: what if the pain comes back? What if the pain starts in my other hip? What if I need another surgery? What if, what if, what if?
(I have watched this video more than once and may have cried).